First and foremost, i would like to wish all the teachers in Singapore and around the wrold a 'Happy Teacher's Day.' Thank you for the sacrifices that you have made and i really appreciate it. From the bottom of my heart. =)

 

The day started with me having to go super early to school for the class deco but i ended up being 15 mins late coz i was held up. My dad forget to take the helmet. Haha, so have to go back up again. So, i quicly went to class with the heaving present and packet of tissues in my bag. HAHA. Found out that they almost finish the deco, so nothing to do went to toilet for funn. walk walk. Haha. Went to class again .. hmm, ask me to blow a green balloon but very diffcult to blow lah. So i sat down waiting for someone to blow for me. Haha.

 

Then, ppl started to go into the class. Then raining. No Mass Walk. Thats just TOO BAD!! Went to the hall. Then back to class again. Had this Sports question. Never heard before. Haha. Anyhow give ans still can get sweet. Sweet. After that, suddenly ppl sing bdae song for Ms Lim. Haha. Hmmm. But, budget limited lah. Hhaha. Or else more funnner. All i did was just sittingdown on the table, looking at my claassmates laugh, disturbing each other having funn. Made me think, it wud be our last year. Looking at them, i would really remebr my memory with them.

 

Went to the hall for maquearde concert. Talk crap only with my classmate befor the concert start.  I particularly liked the NCC performace coz like the Matrix. SO funny. HAha. But too long sit down, legs so cramp. After that, got ice cream !!!  So lucky to have chocloate ice cream rather than the purple. hmm . purple ice cream ? anyone ?

 

Oh yeah, haha. Most of the alumni went back to school. I suddenly remebered this incident when i saw him. SO EMBARASSING! What happened was, we were having camp then there was this game where we have to stand in the hula hoop. Imagine 10 or 15 of you squeezing inside the hoop and you cannot fall down. So, i was in the edge of the hoop and was very balanced. Suddenly with the addition of one more person, i lost balanced and hold his hand so tightly. At first i din't notice but then he was very shocked. and was like looking. Haha. At first i din't realise. Then when i realise that i was holding his hand, i qucikly take my hand away. HAHAHA. So embarrased.

 

Then, went home. Talk with Wendy. Talk with her so funn. I got to see from other perspective. Eg, From a Man's Perpective but i'll talk abt that sum other time. So the topic that really had me engrossed was 'FLING'

My defination of 'FLING' is nothing to do with feelings, just like flitring. No emotions/string attached. I'm sure that everybody have fling before right. Hmm . I think i'm gonna talk abt Fling some other time.

 

Gonna eat. Haha. Hungry.

 

 

 

Physics; did a test, ummm. i think i can do it lah. but got one question wrong. HAIYAH. So Careless of me !

Chemistry; did a feedback to mr tan abt the Chemistry pract. Haha. Many ppl bombard him with all kinds of probs from the bunsen burner to the contaminated solution. The, someone said that the brush was too dirty that when it is being washed, the test tube becomes dirty. Haha. So he said that he's gonna get a new brush so that it'll be clean enough to brush our teeth, HAHA. That was the funniest moment ! HAHA.

Then after that, someone .. rather than two person made me angry.

 

School ended. Stayed in class for awhile. Haha. Talk crap with them. Wendy kept singing and kept asking what is 'BAPOK'. Haha. Then went home coz buying something for miss lim. In the bus, saw yingting. WAH, she made me laugh until my stomach can burst. Haha. But, sometimes her jokes are tooo much. She made me so hurt. But, hmm, forgive and forget ? yeah right.

 

Then, during last period, took the recycling bin to the green corner. Well, shiya she volunteered. Haha. Had a fun talk with her. Very fun.

 

Went to cwp. Walk and walk and deciding what to buy but really NO IDEA. Then, decided to go Popular. Saw Clarence and Weikee. Haha. Clarence was soo sick. Pity him. Get well soon ! Anyways, talk n talk awhile to them, they also bought something for ms lim. Then we decided to buy 'SOMETHING' for her. Won't tell you what it is but i think its something that she can keep her memories of 5n1 in. Guess ?

Went off to meet azh to take the things for the class tml. Gonna have a sorta party? Haha. Well, looking forward to it.

Tml timetable seemed fun. We get to wear class tee and heard there's a mass walk. Hmm, walk walk walk.

 

Friendship. Things are beginning to brighten up but the feeling is just not there although i really tried hard to regain back that feeling. I just feel that things will never be the same again. Well, gonna just have to try.

 

 

"I was glad to see Italy win. All the guys on the team were Italians." 
- Tommy Lasorda, former Dodger manager

 

 

If Ying Ting ur reading this,

 

GET A LIFE . YADDA.

 

BOO.

 

Anyways, many things have happened. Friendship. The silence is so unbearable. I just can't take it anymore. They say silence is golden but its just so awkward. AH .. don't know how long must bear this kind of silence. Hmm .  i think gonna solve this problem after the 1 week of hols when both parties have cooled down and think properly abt the consequences. Somehow i feel that, with all of these happening, things will never be the same again. Its not the beginning neither is it the end but i know that things will never be the same again.

 

Physics; so scarry. I thought i was gonna fail coz i remeber that i anyhow did the questions. Its ridiculous. Not the question but the way i did it. I was like leaving the bLanks and shade it anyhow after i really dunno how to do. Lucky me that i still pass. Hmm, but i'm gonna study later, after i eat LAH, or else i have gastric .. cannot fail. if fail sure get scolded and sit outside. Please please please.

 

Practical; i think i'm gonna flunk either one of it. Sure gonna get a hell of a shouts. BLAHHH.

 

No english. Hooray.

 

Maths; UMM. E-maths coaching. Yepps. Gonna make full use of the time.

 

ARGH. gonna study physcis later.

 

DOINK. DOINK. DOINK. BOOOO.

 

Note to self; Learn the art of self defence.

 

 

 

 

So many things happened. Friendship. Being Accused. Abt someone. There's so much that a human can take; including me. I just wish that i can be free frm all these problems. Now is the time that i really wish that i can knock my head on something hard and forget about everything. This would free me from the troubles in my life. I just want to finish secondary school and get away from the school and go somewhere far where i won't meet anybody i know. After secondary life, i wanna get away from Singapore for awhile. Maybe for few years. Just to get away from the streesful environment, free me frm my troubles. Its just too tiring. I don;t feel like going to school tml but there's a science practical test. I don't feel like meeting the world.

 

Friendship; thiings are becoming to awkward. I hardly talk a sentence to my friend today. I hate the silenece. Very awkward. I ended up talking my probs to my friend after school on the hp, off course. Somehow, don't feel very relieved.

 

...  who am i? Maybe, i should forget abt things. It really affected me badly. I know things which i shouldn't have known. I feel that this thing, its better that i don't know and just be stupid abt it. Just remebring the scenario makes my heart pain.

 

ok, i have been taking frequent breaks frm my studies and see the batman returns for awhile, but where is BATMAN? I always see the badman.

Where is he ?

 

 

~ Gotta make a getaway.

Idiot Mr Manager. He thinks he so big that i am scared of him?? Its just a stupid post once u get out u r only an ordinary person. Scared of losing profits? More like i won't patron ur place anymore. You lose one customer. Its YOUR loss. Not mine. I can always go to other place to eat. Most likely you have you have $10 less on total monthly money. I hope you have $10 less to pay the electric bills, or salary.

Stop talking abt it. Makes me furious.

 

Todays was kinda 'adventuruous', haha. Decided to study with Clarence, Wei Kee and Wendy. Since Wendy decided not to eat, me and clarence and weikee decideed to eat. Haha. Kept saying that anywhere is fine with me. Haha. They can't make up their mind. Haha. So they planedd to go banquet. I think they forget where is Banquest coz they went to Horizon mall and i told them its the wrong place. But then banquet too many ppl. Haha, clarence was fed up. Then went to McD. They don't care they just want to sit there and eat. Then we saw this woman and her child like want to finish eating but thhen she say, 15 mins. We were like. WHAT ..

 

After that, went to meet Wendy. We went to the lib forth floor to see what the Green club ppl doing. Haha. They making grasshopper. Hmm, saw many of my classmates there. HAHA. Very funny. Studied chem. Mole calculations. Still struggling. Gonna need a miricle.

 

I need a miracle to understand my Math Similiar Triangle.

Its been a long time since i update this and i gotta say this.

 

 

Ppl, i have gastric prob ok? So, dun gimme medicine that can make me die. Still can say, after i finished eating, if u have diarheaa don't eat coz u'll die. HELLO, diarheaa n gastric is not the same ! I still have many things to do YOU KNOW!

 

OK, and i have been doing MATH for like 2 days in a row. Its so ironic, i dun usually study for Math. Hmmm.

 

I'm having a constant headache. So pain like bursting. Maybe not enough sleep coz i have been waking up at 3am to study.

I'm becoming a more and more bz person. Everyday go hm late coz study. O-level is making me like this.

 

 

 

 

I don't wanna go. I still wanna live to see the world. Why don't you see the world thru my eyes for once? Its beautiful. Free yourself from the one u hate and u'll be doing a good deed to urself. Love everyone and touch thier heart coz thats what life is. Now i understand the meaning of it. The irony of life is short but ppl don't treasure them. Treasure the one you love, live a day as if it were your last and you'll make full use of ur life. Don't put up a facade everyday. Smile sincerely, frm ur heart and u'll find that even the most difficult things u went thru will have its happiness.

 

I still haven't say what i should say and do what i should do. The prob is, i don't have the courage. Will i just go without telling the ppl i love them? If i go, i won't have a chance to say anymore. I don't wanna love in regret time and time again. But so far, the only person who made me happy is my bestfriend. If only, sum1 wud say it to me, i will be the happiest person in the world, leaving without worries.

 

 

 

ooops. kinda looked into the eyes. I shoudn't have done that but, its too late.

 

 

I need some kind of miracle to understand the chemistry mole concept.

 

 

 

 

Tons of themm .

 

 

Today the weather so HOT. HOT HOT HOT. I can faint from the stuffiness in the class and the hotness. After choice, quickly went to the library, so coooolinggg.. If only the classrooms id fitted with air conditioner. Dream On.

 

So , think gonna sleep later and wake up at 3 am to do hmwks. Great.

 

 

What would happened if suddenly, someone's gone. Just like that? Would we be devastated? Or regret coz we never say what we should have to the person? I wonder ...

 

 

 

Long time never update .. coz my comp went berserk. Kept shutting down on me. So irritating.

 

Kinda Irritating.

 

I got hooked with the song, 'No Promises' by Shayne Ward.

 

 

 

 

Gaze at my eyes, look thru the world with at perspective.

I felt like it was os badly done. Everyhting. I was too nervous. How dare the teacher sleep! AHH! But the most embarassing of all was, when i went out of the rooom, i kept pushing the door because it refused to budge. Then the teacher say, "Push the white button, Lyana." I was like, wth. SO EMBARASSING that i let the door slammed and it was loud. Scared the teacher think i have an attitude seh. What's done cannot b undone. If the marks are meant to b mine, it will be mine. If not then,  .. dot dot dot .

 

I felt kinda sick today. My stomach was like squrming, felt like vomitting but i don't feel like it. My head is so heavy and my body aching seh. SO scary, my chest was in a pain. What's wrong seh. What's happening? I still have many unfufilled wishes. wth am i talking.

 

78 days to o lvl. WTH am i doing??? SO SICK.

 

The day was BORING>. BORIN|G BORING BORING

 

NOBODY MADE ME HAPPY. NOBODY MADE ME SMILE FROM MY HEART. except for the pen magic trick, that part, i laughed alots.

 

 

 

 

Stupid comp; yesterday hang up on me for no good reason. I think my comp now have a brain coz u see, now, my comp is capable of erasing evryhting in my hard drive.

 

I've been busy these past few days. Practically been running from one place to another. Homeworks and tests  to be done. Now, my body aching. Hopefully, after O lvl, everyhting will end soon. SO, have to sacrifice a bit. I'll be busy for the nest few months. Hmm .

 

Soo, now like brain dead. Cannot think of anything. Hmm, if i go on to sit with yingting, i think i'll have a heart attaack sooner or later. Haha, just a metaphor lah.

 

So tml my eng oral. Gotta go, continue my reviosion.

 

Darn it.

 

 

"Sure there have been injuries and deaths in boxing - but none of them serious." 
- Alan Minter, Boxer 

 

 

 

Geog; haha, saw many of our sec 2 geog projects. I saw Jun Wei's project. Very nice. Its a cardboard some kind like a book. Shara's vanguard sheet with her drawings. Then, Ms Yati showed some pictures. Haha. The pictures have soome hidden pictures. Fun funn .

 

P.E; so funn. We played Captain's ball. This is the only P.E period that i got really involved and have fun in the game. I was in the defence and haha, did lots of jumpng to prevent the ball frm being catched. Haha. Too many points scored by both team. Lost count. Haha.

 

English; did mock exam paper. SO boring. ALways the same all thing. Like no surprise in life. Then i did the oral, overall she say ok. Hmm, but she suddenly say, ok ok next question. SO abrubtly seh, in the middle of MY conversation. She was supposed to listen to me! Haha, but its ok. I guess there's just not enough time. Then, when i was sitting in class doing my eng, then i remember that that scene was like in my dream seh. With Yalian infront reading the pic conversation, then i sat infront alone and theres this boy shouting outside. I dreamt abt this before. Its like Deja-vu all over !

 

Math; did math paper. I dunno how to do LAH. Mostly leave blank. Nvm if get scolded. Haha. Then, last period, she say abt th eincident again. Hmmm. and also about things lah.

Phy choice; i really hate phy practical !! AHHH! It was so HOT and STUFFY. My face was sweating. The stupid graph just don't have the right scale. I kept redoing and redoing finding the scale to fit the whole stupid thing. Then finally, someone told me, teacher say its ok. WHAT ???? I can do the practical but not the freaking stupid graph. I wonder what will happen on the prelim practical. All i can do is hope that i can do.

After that, teached sufi eng oral again. Hmmm, haha. funni funni. There's also Wendy, Hafiz n Liyana to spice things up. Haha, altho he din do much but with Wendy ard, its gonna be funn. Then they talk crap. Somehitng abt lesbians.

I'm so in love with the song, No promises by Shayne Ward.

 

Ok ppl, this is .. haha.. I got a laugh.

"I loved Jordan. He was one of the greatest athletes of our time."
-Mariah Carey on hearing of the death of the King of Jordan.

 

 

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby

Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?

 

 

This is funny .

 

"Lack of brains hinders research." 
- Headline 

 

 

So yeah, anyways.. kept chocking on my food and drink today. Hmm, wondered who gossip abt me. Hmmm, ha ..

Ok, i haven't been online or hogging the internet in the day. But now, i am. Because i am still thinking where i have gone wrong. Hmm, this really bites if you don't know where your mistakes lies. I still need time to think and reflect an to think, what's next after this?

And i have been caught up with my world of mugging. Yeah, i've started my revison and i think that i can't take the pressure. I have been sleepy but i forced myself to study. No choice. Its good to sacrifice now then to regret later. I mean, the tv won't run away right ? and the dvd player won't spoil on me next year right ? haha. What a turn of event.

 

And i wanna thanks my Confidant. She's like a foster mum to me! I am glad that i pour my feelings to her.

What she said actually made sense to me.

 

Things happened for a reason. You can't always be on top of the mountain. Sometimes, u have to fall and pick urself up and climb again. But its not always u have a second chance. So, i have to make full use of this second chance and climb the mountain even if the cold is killing me. Even if i need the walking stick, i wud still climb. And yeah, it made me not to be too complacent. I'm trying to make full use of my time to do something useful. It was a blessing in disguise.

 

Yeah, she asked me to think carefully abt my decision to retake m.t paper, whether it would affect me other subs. It would affect the other subs one way or the other but i'm willing to take the risk. This is important to me and i have made up my mind way before i got my results, if i have a disatisfying marks, i will retake again. No matter what the conditions are. And, i guess nobody could stop me? Haha,  its like nobody can stop me frm eating my ice cream. Cheer up to those who can't get the marks that the desired. Instead, try to learn something from it and move on. And, cheer up to me. :)

 

For you guys ..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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 I came across this when i surf the net, cheered me up abit.

 

"Please do not feed the animals. If you have any suitable food, give it to the guard on duty." 
- Sign in Budapest Zoo

 

I'm so disturbed by my friend's joke.

She joke around that, he and his gf went to a hotel and watch the fireworks and do it at the same time. WTH.

 

Anyways, YAY, i bought the Teddy Geiger CD!

 

Yeah, theatre by the bay yesterday. Sat behind the Merlion. Just enjoying.

 

 

I dreamt that i was chased by a spirit. Someone died but then the spirit went into a clock. The clock spirit. SCARY.

 I kept running and running and running. I was at the top of the flat. I felt like jumping down. But someone took my arm and i ran from one end to another down the staircase. Then i woke up. I wonder what the meaning of this dream of mine. Is someone deceiving me? Am i running away frm the problems rather that solving them? I know that i don't want to face my problems. I'm running away from it but nobody even cares. But, who is that person who took my arm and ran with me? Is it someone who deceived me? The person maybe feeling guilty n may want to save me frm these.

 

 

What the heck ..

 

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY

 

 

The start of school. There's this march and handing of leadership to ppl. How come like no contingent marching? It doesn't feel like National Day celebration. All the school does was to give out prizes to outstanding ppl. And my class, there's like 2 person getting a prize, cc and clarence. Congrats to them. And also Muz, he represented his mum for this 'friend of (name of school)' Award. Congrats.

 

The Band performance was great. Finally got to hear the song the played at Band concert which was at Singapore Conference Hall.

 

I feel like, there's too much 'true love' themes. The band played 2 sad songs and there's this modern dance which also showcased somtehing about true love.

It really made me wonder, why some ppl can have true love but not others. I always see ppl walk together, smiling happily and laughing. But are they putting up a show for us to see. Are they really that happy? Behind those smiles, there's maybe a secret, the boy may not love the girl anymore or the girl may have some other boy etc. Its overrated. This kind of things. Its just not fair if others have got more. Even if you cared so much for someone, they won't even know. They'll just take it for granted and won't remember anything at all.

 

 

Chemistry; the teacher so irritating. Kept talking abt chem TYS.

 

TYS TYS TYS TYS, i can;t teach you without ur TYS.

Pls bring ur TYS on monday.

TYS TYS TYS

TYS TYS TYS

and more TYS while he set up the laptop. TYS

 

lesson on.

 

finish lesson; class remember to bring ur TYS.

 

Thats all i can remember. TYS.                (note to self: TYS is ten year series.)

 

Geog; played an interesting game. Its called Action or Sound. The person would have to act so we must guess what is the ans.

Ans were:

Chinese Wedding

Peranakan Family

Malay Kampong aling the Kallang River

Stamford college @ 'Let's Dance' Party'

Motorcar Rally @ Lim Chu Kang

 

and much more.

 

P.E; first period played soccer, second period played captain's ball. I wasn't active so i just sat down. This is where i got a shocking news. I sit with YING TING! i CAN'T believe it! SO INFRONT !

 

English; BORING                =O

 

Math; changed place. I sit with Ying ting. So infront. ARGHH! I am not used to sitting infront. I think i am going to miss my previous place. Now, no place to daydream. When i daydream, i always look outside looking at what the pupils are doing and stuffs. Now, cannot see the ppl infront. Its usuallly me who can see who is doing what. Haha. Even when they sleeping or noisy. Now all i have to do is face the whiteboard. That's lame. Just now, teacher talking, i wansn't really listening. I was more distracted abt the ppl who are behind me. I now so lonely!! No more meijuan and chuhui to joke ard with!!!!!!!!!  LONELY !!!!!!!!!

 

Assembly; ear pain seh. The music and ppl talk so loud. But the performance was funny lah. Muneru Valiba ! (sp?)

 

Stayed back, teach Sufi Oral Skills.

 

Boys can be so fickle minded!

 

 

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