Many things happened this past few days. Some good, some bad. Some funny incidents. When i think back abt it, it seems so funny. Haha. Hmm ..

 

Today was ok. During the history period, i cannot concentrate because a song kept playing in my mind and i can't seem to switch it off. Hmm, due to this, i have been thinking about my pprobs, it bites.

 

The night is like this,

the night have always been like this.

I don't know why but

Morning still won't come.

 

Direct transalation of the song from Malay to English.

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This guy ask this girl for a date, but she thinks that he only care about his friend so she stood him up. The guy didn't mind. The girl kept thinking about it.

 

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I actually have written my entry but somehow, i don't know how it got lost.  Freaksy . ARGHHH !

 

Cut short;

 

I am actually in a very good mood today. I have let go of my feelings away and concentrate with this. I hope to continue it coz it makes me a better person and a lil less miserable. Hmm. Yep !

 

Gonna concentarte on my studies.

 

 

I just wanna hide and stay there till the grey skies are cleared away.

Would there even be anyone to clear it? I don't want to face the world. I really don't. I'm in no mood for all this stuff. Its bringing me down. Down, down, deeper.

 

I'm gonna sleep early probably at 9.00 coz its been 2 days i sleep wait. No, its not due to me watching world cup but me trying to finish my Math assignment and thinking abt some of the problems that i have been facing. I'm so tired that the whole lesson today i was half concentrating but i managed to understand the lesson. Lucky Me. I'm going to start afresh tomorrow. I'm not going to let these problems bring me down. I'm going to leave ALL my problems out of my head until the O levels and by then, maybe the probs won't seem to be a burden to me coz maybe i would let it go, one way or the other.

 

I'm going to start revising already. Hearing abt teacher's talkking abt the nearness of the O level just scare the living daylights out of me. I just hope that they would stop talking abt it. Malay Oral is nearer, maybe nest week? Gonna start reading Malay newspaper and start practising my speech. Maybe predict the questions. Yeah ..

 

Today's fire drilll was so in the wrong time. They should have done it when it was not scorching hot. Everybody was practically complaning but they were having loads of fun distrubing each other and having loads of evil funn.

 

Hmm . I'm going to stop confusing myself with these emotions that i am having. Put them all away; better, just throw it away in the dustbin. Hear me world; i'm coming back !

 

 

 

 

 

 

School was O.K

 

Thats all.

 

Just a few changes here and there which equals to disaster. Great. Would be looking forward to that.

 

Am i just a approsimate I ?

Am i just a transparent individual in your eyes?

Do you even see me at all ?

 

I guess no.

 

But i'm hoping.

 

 

OH SHUCKS !

 

Its official.

 

My hols are over. Somehow, i really have no mood to go to school. I won't be looking forward tml. Unlike the past years where i have been looking forward to school, this time, the feeling is different.

 

I am not ready to carry the heavy burden of being an O level student. People expect much from me and i have to give them twice or thrice the effort. I am no ready to meet the world, the people around me. Somehow, something happened that it made me uncomfortable to face the world tml. How am i going to see them if i myself am not comfortable to meet me? Ironic isn't it. Everyday we're looking at ourself in the mirror and suddenly they say that they are not comfortable to meet themself. I don't mean that actually. What i mean is, i am not ready to face me, with the burden that i am carrying, and to meet the world.

 

But i guess, thats a burden that all students have to carry. One way or another.

 

There's no more late night movie where i'll sleep late till the morn, no more sleeping in, no more having fun; watching tv and turning on the darn computer althought the comp been irritating me. I'll miss them all.

 

Looking back, i really missed my primary school life. So free of burdens. Full of funn. Haha. Maybe thats why i am stuck in this 5 years education. HAHA. But i do not regret for i have made friends with interesting people. A feeling so nice. Memories that i won't forget.

 

And yeah, i still haven't finish my hmwk. I don't know how to face the teacher. HOW ??

 

I'm just scared. Scared of losing everything.

I'm supposesed to do my HMWK ! But what am i doing NOW, yeah i'm infront of my comp typing this.

 

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

 

I thought there's one week left to sch hols but NO,

Next week start SCHOOL!

 

and guess what, i haven't do my HMWK.

 

thats just GREAT. yeah, GREAT since now i'm not doing my hmwk and i'm always thinking abt my hmwk while i'm here infront of the comp thinking that 5 mins later i will do but NO, that 5 mins never come coz its going to be very late when i switch off my comp and by that time i'll be darn rired. OH SHUCKS !

 

I must have some self disicpline. Haiz.. Ok lah, later i stop lahh. Yeah right. BOO ><

 

AHHHH !

 

 

I don't wanna go school !

 YET

Perfection is my direction, even if that's all I had
Its not like I need no correction, I just know that life's not so bad

 

 

 

 

 

I met my destination
What's life to complain about?

I don't care about anything else ..

 

haa ..

 

I'm melting ..

Great .. i have loads of msn friends who are from french. And i don't speak thier language. How Fun. BOO.

I have this interesting friend from Mexico, and he's getting married. He invited me to Mexico. I thought he was just joking with me. Haha. I said that i am still studying and have no money. LOL. But he offered to buy the air tix. Thats nice of him but i really can't go because i have commitments in school and stuffs. Thanks anyways and remebr to send me ur wedding pixs ! :)

 

 

I'm just a nitch on your bedpost but you're just a line in a song.

 

I think i would be much more happier if none of this have happened. If none of these have happened, i won't be so miserable. If only i can turn back time, then i woudn't be too involved in this.

 

But i am beginning to accept that we can't always get what we want because we would only get the things that we NEED. I don't need it. Its of no use to me.

 

And i'm beginning to accept everything that comes to my way because everything happens for a reson.

 

But i am not ready to start back all over again. I need time. Give me time and i'll be back to my normal self. Which is the lively type not dead.

Pieces.

Whoa! Slow down. What you've done so far is much more than anyone expected! Sometimes, it's wise to give 99 percent of your efforts -- and save that last 1 percent to really wow them next time. Be scrupulous about the effort you put into things right now; there is a strategy there that you need to consider. You are capable of making major changes happen overnight, but sometimes changes are better if they happen slowly. There's no rush -- so slow down and enjoy the process.

 

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