Yesterday, no sch due to the polling day hols.

Was planning for self m.t intensive, but obviously it doesn't work. Boo hoo. Was constantly distracted by myself mostly, always wanna go and eat, drink den go to my bro's bedroom to watch tv. Was planning to watch awhile but obviously, a long time. Hah. Must learn to be more self-disciplined.

 

Today got the results back. Oklah. Ok only. Some of the subs are not up to my expectation. So disappointing. Should have worked harder. I think its complacent on my part. Now i know what to expect. So for the prelim, i'll work doubly or not triple hard for it. I don't care. As long as it satisfy me. Hah. Then there's the teacher parents meeting. Don't know what she's gonna say. I hope its not sumthing bad. Haha.

 

Anw, this coming monday is o-level m.t

I'm gonna do properly for this coz i wanna concentrate on other subs esp Math! That's my priority, along with other subs. Hmmm..

 

My friend said that 'everything happens for a reason.' I know its sounds cliche but do you believe in it?

I don't know whether its just a coincidence or fate?

 

But then again, what's fate?

 

When something happen, does it mean that your not fated with the guy?

 

When something happen, does it mean that you're fated with the guy because you're always with him no matter what .. ?

 

Its so weird to be thinking of the reason.

 

Whether its coincidence or fate.

 

i hope its the latter.

Today m.t intensive started late coz we went back to class to check our mid year marks. Before that, my form teache rstarted to scold some ppl, all bcoz they didn't bring a journal. Hmmph. Hey ppl, bring it next time! Anw, she also said that our marks were kinda disappointing. I think i agree. Hmm.

 

Anw, after that, left 1 hour of m.t intensive. Haha. Oklah. Time flies so  fast. Before u know it, its already recess time. Hee. After recess, do the survey thingy n gee, that survey was one WEIRD thing!

 

After school, went Lavender then Paya Lebar to eat. Hah. Thats all lah. Lazy lah.

 

 

 

 

2 days of m.t intensive really made my head spin. Can't stand it lahs. Malay period all the week. Cannot take it coz not used to it. Its been only 2 days and i am already so stressed up. I can't imagine myself sitting in the class for the next 5 days. AHHHHH !!

 

Its not boring lah. Its very tiring to be sitting in the next half of the noon. Its so stuffy and HOT! I would trade the food for the aircon anytime sey.

 

 

I haven't finish my malay hmwk. Finito.

M.T intensive was a blast !!

 

- Many laughing moments

- 1-hr recess

- Stress - reliever

 

Anw, i kept redoing my m.t formal letter compo 4 times. Its seems that i kept reading the questions wrongly, i kept repeating the two words. I'm so distracted by something. Its so pathetic ti be wating 4 pieces of foolscaps. Haizz ..

 

Well..not much happened today. All the way was m.t intensive. Fullstop. 

 

Got back Geog, M.T and Eng  .. Although i did not have high expectations for these subs but my grades are dropping. My grades are below MY expectation. Its so disappointing. Whats happening to me? O-levels are nearer but i am nowhere to achieving my targets. My results are slipping away from me and i'm worried so is my dream.

 

As for science, umm.. Paper 1 ruined my overall marks LAHS! Hmmph!

 

Just now anchor test kept yawning coz yesterday watched DIA. Oh yeah, DIA's ending was not satisfactory. Eventhough i looked at it from all perspective, its just NOT right. Anw, i almost finished the paper half an hour early. So i stopped at 11.15 and continued doing at 11.30 taking my own sweet time. Even if i took my own time, there's still 10mins remaining. How Pathetic. Should have slowed down a lil bit.

 

In the morning, v.p made a speech. When he said about our mid year marks, it was clear that it was very disappinting. What he said made me reflect. His speech was close to inspiring but the most inspiring of all was physics teacher, " What matters is not the marks, it the process of learning blah blah blah" Something like that. Today class a lil bit chaotic esp eng class, so haywire. Hah.

 

Tml is M.T intensive. Can't imagine how its gonna be like. I think there's gonna be load and loads of paper to finish.

 

up up and away we go !

Today got back 3 exam papers; Eng, Math, Chemistry and Paper1 Chem&Phy.

 

I AM SO DISAPPOINTED WITH MY ENG!

 

I can't believe it actually. Anw, for this mid-yr, i am not having high hopes for my Subs coz i know mentally, i didn't prepare hard for it. Although i have been studying like ... but when i saw the test paper, i just freaked out. N-level and O - level standard are way to BIG! Jump from one to another, ARGHH.

 

But its scary coz when i saw the Eng marks on my paper, i don't feel anything. Not sad, not happy. Am i becoming numB. Most of the time when teacher was going thru the Eng paper, my mind was sumwhere else. I was daydreaming. In MY dream, i promised myself to work double hard. I don't wanna let my parents down.

 

As for Chem, its unexpected lahs. Hee.

 

Paper 1, i expected THAT kind of mark lahs coz i sort of didn't study. So traumatised by the marks. Haiz..

 

Its NOT OK.

"You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day''

 

-Daniel Powter

 

 

 

wow. if only i could get blue sky holiday.

Wishing Happy Mother's Day to all mother's put there !

 

Was planning to meet my mum at Causeway Point after her work but my dad picked her up to bring her home. She said she wanna get her chores done so i went cwp first to meet Liyana. I bought my mother a bag at Metro and got it wrap; free. Then followed Liyana to buy her present. CWP was jammed packed with many ppl. Mostly with thier families lahs. Of coz, mother's day wad.

 

Den met my mum at CWP and gave her the prezzie. I won't forget her expression. Hee. Wanted to treat my mum at Swenson; but not the set meal lah, only ICE CREAM but TOO MANY PPL!! Then, we opted for McD but this time my mum treat me. Hee.

 

The person beside me irritating SEY! Feel like asking him to keep quiet; but then, its a free country. Haiz.

 

AT about 8+ went home. Then my bro told me something funny. He said my lil bro wanted to run away from home, on NOVEMBER or after the show ZACH BELL is finished. HAHAHHA.. when i heard that i cud not stop laughing. I didn't know that if you wanna run away, there;s a time limit. HAH. But of course, my bro is just kidding LAHs.

 

Up up and away ..

 

 

Tml mummy's day .. gonna buy her the bag ..

 

Anw, this 4 consecutive days, binging on chocolates. Cadbury, Van Houten, Ferrero Rocher .. u name it. Hahax.

Gonna stop this on Monday. By Monday, won't be eating this stuff no more! Uh-uh.

 

Today just stay at home, watch tv, do nothing and eat lahs. So boring.. i am BORED. STIFF BORED. Go net oso got nothing. HAIYAH... the tv show nonsense. MARS ATTACK. Who wanna watch, Unless you're some alien fanatic. No offence but THAT show ? Who ever heard of a COW ON FIRE ?

 

So, been dl games from the net, shockwave.. Diner Dash 2, Cake Mania, Plantasia. These games got limit so when i was in the middle of excitement suddenly one voice pop out, "You have less than 2 minutes to finish the game" Shut up LAHS.

 

Haha ..

Finally, exams OVER !

 

WOO-HOO,

 

Now i know why they don't hold the sciene paper 1 together with chem paper. Its because they want US to STUDY. REVISE. Not to sleep the whole day. Oh no. No no. When i saw the first question of the Physics paper, i was, "ALAMAK, i didn't revise this LAHs." And the LAST question of Chem paper was an A but i put D. Yeah. Looking forward to my marks. NOT!

 

I don't want to think of anything related to studies at the moment. Come monday, i will. Time flies so fast. Soon, it wuld be my m.t intensive. So fast.I can't believe that i am now taking my O level. Time time time. By the time flies, i'll soon be taking my O - lvl. Argh.

 

So today was marking day. No need  to go school. Tomorrow is a public hols; Vesak day. Be having 4 days of enjoyment and relaxation and as well as sleeping. Went to cwp just now to look for mummy day's prezzie. Found this bag. Very nice lahs. At Metro. $60. Since me mum bag broken, gonna buy a new one. Gonna ask me 2 bros to chip in too. Divide divide, affordable lahs. Gonna be a Suprise for her. Many shops now selling mother's day gift. And many people, esp little boys and girls buying gifts for thier mummy. Then went to the floral shop, a little boy bought this cuteteddy bear with a rose, $12.90. He must have took the money from his piggy bank coz most of the money was in shillings. HOW SWEET !    with sugar on top of it. Sugar snowbunny and cheery icicle. Yum.

 

Tml my cuzzie's 20th birthday. Dunno whther free or not. Hahx.

 

 

One more  time,

HIP HIP HOORAY !

HIP HIP HOORAY !

HIP HIP HOORAY !

 

 

Today whole day was like slacking ..

 

The chemistry paper was O.K, i guess except for section B. Too bad lah. I guess serve me right lah coz i didn't put 100% effort. Another 50% effort was left behind. I think coz tml finishing exam already. Hooray.

 

Thought of going home early to catch up on my sleep but i forgot my home KEYS! ARGGHH !

So i asked Liyana to wait for me at Admiralty and talk and talk and talk. Den at abt 12.00 went home coz my bro is home. Den i sleep and wake up on my comp. HAHA. Gonna study later. Juz abit of revision and i am all done.

 

I guess for this mid year. Em. Won't do well lah so i don't expect too high. Coz if i expect too high and i don't iachieve it den i would only disappoint myself and breakdown. It happened once and i'm not letting it happen again coz it was really the darkest period of my life. No one was there to comfort me. I was left alone.

 

Hmm .. enuff of that lah.. Anyways, tml is last paper.. HOORAY >>!

 

Looking forward to my nap.

Everyday, i go to school, i always see this ..

 

The unwilling lover 

The calm genuis.

Unfaithful incident.

The glitzy galore girl

Smile like you mean it.

Silent killer

Casanova

Infinite Flirt

 

She shoudn't have love her friends admirer. Its wrong. Its just too wrong.

Yesterday was kinda O.K .. went to eat ar Swensons. After eating, felt really bloated until wanna vomit. There were still leftovers of food and i was forced to finish it.. Right now i am feeling so hungry haha. I tried the isqeeze, the osim thingy, the machine so nice.. My leg is now not aching anymore.. So nice..but first time try very ticklish lah. Then i tried the High Mode ..wah felt like my legs were going to squeeze my blood out. The machine tried to murder me. Hah.

 

Was planning to wake up at 4 a.m today but didn't wake up. Sheesh. The hp didn't ring AT ALL. Or did i sleeepwake and turn off the alarm. hmm. I don't remeber. Then in the morning i rush thru all my math note. And found out that its worthless coz last min revision won't do any good. So i just leave it.

 

Sadly to say, i gave up my math last quest and the time question. Really don't know how to do. Then the physics, SO DIFFICULT, i forgot SOME of of the formula. I didn't do the whole question on transformer; the sub quest. In total, i counted i lost 8 marks. So pathetic. I totally gave up. And i was so distracted, i kept thinking about the smililing issue,

 

Really, i have NO IDEA that putting the cloth out to dry have something to do with physic. SO the next time IF i hang out my clothes to dry; i will remebr to count the moment so that i will fly out of the window.

 

How pathetic.

 

 

I really have no mood to study for exams .. arghh .. When I force myself, i can't get the info in my head .. been thinking of all kinds of things .. about my past .. what my friend say ..

 

Now watching the election results and .. its obvious who's winning ;

 

I don't care, i think i am going to study after this .. arghh ..

 

 

Today was a short day .. Had History paper and Math Paper 2.

 

What i studied for history did not come out AT ALL! I thought China was going to come out.. Sheesh .. In the end, i took the chapter that i did not study. I think i write crap lah~

But overall, i managed to finish everything with the CONCLUSION this time and yeah .. i manage time but as for the content wise, not sure ..

 

As for math, umm .. i did do all BUT for some questions, just do anyhow.. Better write sumthing that leave blank.. Who knows i got 1 mark .. it makes a big diff from passing to failing..

 

Nxt week gonna be science paper and i have yet to revise .. oh yeah, math paper 1 too ..

 

 

There's no stars to keep me company tonight .. I think its going to rain .. Even the stars are selfish, they leave me alone to keep others happy. But i don't mind .. i'll keep wishing ..

Geography paper was super duper hard .. MOST of the MCQ questions i have no idea how to do. I just choose anyhow lah.. Then what to do? Go out class and jump down? My class on the 1st flooor. If jump down, the only you get is a slight bruise, a detention and a big FAT zero. And the paper two, ohhh .. i was practically half asleep. There was alotof things going through my mind when i did my geog paper. I was too distracted but personal feelings. I should not have get these things mix up. I promise myself not too get too emotionally invovled when doing exams ..

 

And yeah, Social Studies paper, first time in my 5 years of sec life, i have completed ALL the questions. This time, i really managed my time well..

 

Its been weeks since i have a proper good night rest. I need my 8hours of sleep! But i am sacrficing it right now for the sake of EXAMS. I am now looking forward to the weekends and have my sleep. HAH.

 

Tml, my History and Math paper. And i haven started my revision on MATH. Shhhh ..

 

 

Today's gonna be my Geography and Social Studies. To be precise, 8h and 44mins to go and i am still nowhere near to the end of my revision.

 

Esp social studies .. Lucky i'm not the only one .. hehe.

I studied the wrong chp LAHs!

SO irritated. Am planning to sleep at 1 a.m and wake up at 4 a.m to complete my revision.

 

IF i can wake up.

 

Mission Impossible.

What's wrong with me with the past few weeks? I don't get tired at all!

I've been sleeping late and waking up early but this routine don't make me tired at all.

Am i becoming one of those nocturnal humans. Its scary if you don't feel tired coz one day you might collapse due to fatigue without you knowing it. I think i am already used to it lahs. Actually, i she say i should feel lucky coz i turned my biological clock into a state where i can prepare for my exams. But deep down, i think i am tired, mentally. Don't care. I have to do what i HAVE to do. No more procrastinating. I wasted enough of my time doing window shopping and walking around aimlessly trying to find an answer. I promise with myself to BUCK UP for the prelims.

 

Gotta get back to studying. Gotta improve.

 

I think if my brain accept one more information there would be information overload and th brain would explode. But of course, that won't happen. In real life.