Luck on Stars,

cheers and love,

warmest hug,

kiss on the cheeks,

 

 

 

 

Wooohoo. Today marks the last day for the fasting month and tml would be celebration! Woohoo. But that 'woohoo' would be short lived as i would be taking my o lvl this year. boo. sacrifice my raya for my date with books. Sweet. Anyways, here wishing to all Selamat Hari Raya.

Today's dinner was simply dee-licious. My mum cooked up a feast today and i think i'm not full yet. Haha, gonna have another serving later. Coz i can sleep when i'm hungry. Teehee,

 

School today was kinda darn slow. I went to school just to wait for the time to go home. Haha. In this festive mood, i really have no mood to dtudy. But gonna force myself later to read up on social studies. No choice. Math lesson, went for this 'photo-taking'. Haha. They wanted to take pics instead of doing math so we were wondering on the stairs alone without a teacher as to what we are going to do. Haha.

 

 

 

but life have to move on...

 

Nothing can describe this feeling i'm feeling.

 

 

 

The main thing is, don't let other's decision affect yours. Its true coz it happened to me before. Ppl n the environment have been influencing me to which path i wanna go after my o-level. What they say abt certain decision to go either poly or jc. But in the end, its really up to me where i wanna go to somewhere that i can be truly happy and not to make the others happy. Well, i've decided. What i wanna do is to broaden my horizon. Someone said to me, there's a whole lot of world out there that i should discover, don't just live in Singapore and be content with what you have, eg Good Grades, Good Living condition or even a good job that pays well. What i should do is to see how other ppl live to they way they work and also their culture. Its so beautiful the world out there but its just a matter of whether you consider or have the time to even think about what you really reaally want in life. Now i know what i want and nothing can shake me off.

i've decided to take a course which will take me somewhere out of Singapore, to discover a whole new lot of possibilites out there.

 

Oh my Goodness. The haze is getting from bad to worse. I'm so affected by it. Constand giddiness. Perhaps may also be due to studies. Haha. Now, i'm taking  a break out of my revision and gonna continue later. Thursday is the practical exam. I really hope i can do well. All along my marks for practicals have been flunctuating. I just hope for THIS practical to get a good set of grades. After all, its gonna be my last year taking practical exams. Oh yeah, she said that it was out last tuesdays together with our classmates and we shud treasure them. Thinking of it, its gonna be kinda sad.

 

Anyways, i hope that the haze prob wud go away soon coz its starting to annoy me. Maybe they shud close down schools so that i won't be affected THAT MUCH.

 

 

 

 

 

ok.

i'm dead.

 

i think i just spoiled my bro's new mp4.

 

Its JAMMED.

damn.

 

Had a 'loud' arguement with someone. Really made my blood boil. It was like the first time i felt like bursting and i really felt my blood was like hot. I told him the truth straight to his face and he goes on .. bloody blah blah abt things. As if i haven't got enough. Weird. How come nobody was there when i'm angry but everybody was beside me when i'm happy. Guess that's life. It was a much disputed argument. I wasted my energy yesterday coz i feltreally really tired after that. One takeaway i can learn is; i can use this as my compo.

 

Yesterday; i went to break fast at cwp, banquet. I saw many woodgrovers there of which i don't recognise but see before. Then, there was this drama yesterday which takes place infront of my table. There was a familt of four sitting infront stilleating. Then there's this woman with her children, she asked her maid to stand there and wait for the family to finish eating. She talk so loud summore. And so she wait until the family finished. Suddenly there's also this middle-aged woman carrying a BIG plastic bag and also sat down with the maid. The maid was like dunno dunno. Then the maid get scolded coz she let other ppl sit. Haiyoooo . Then the woman with the big plastib bag also angry. Haha. Big drama.

 

She just wanna flirt with you.

Still can't see?

and so .. the moral is, not to let other things affect you coz both party angry nobody win. If i'm happy and the other person is not, i win. BIG TIME.

I have something to add to yesterday's post.

 

 

She just wanna flirt with you.

It was always on my mind.

 

 

OH MY GOSH. I hated going to the dentist when i was like in primary one. That dentist kept scolding me coz i broke my teeth into two. Its not that i want it to happen but blame it on that boy who pushed me. So when i had to go to the denstist, i was like BOO. But then,oklah. The dentist was kind and not very rude.

 

Been a long time since i log to my msn. Hmm,been busy these past few days. been going home late coz studied at school. I dunno how can i keep up with this routine. its really really tiring. Sometimes i just can't handle it and feel like breaking down. I'm very tired emotionally, physically and mentally tired.

 

I feel like running away from here. Somewhere far, somewhere i don't have to think abt anything and just enjoy myself. i'll b glad to have anyone as a company. We''ll forget abt the world. We'll waste time doing things that we love. Why don't we do these before we're old? Lets forget what we are supposed to do. Lets go somewhere where love takes over hate. Would you come with me? Lets play games ppl don't wanna play. But when ..

 

But these things won;t happen ..miracles don't just happen. You have to be successful to survive in this society. sometimes i confuse my feelings with the truth. But i really wanna go   ..

 

 

Exhausted !

sometimes, life's just not fair to me. How come ppl can have what they want and not me? how come they can easily get what they want. when life doens't have much to offer, i feel like just giving up but am i given a choice? No. its either do or die. If i give up now,  i will surely lose my future and regret  later. I tried my best but somehow i don't get far. Maybe its because i have done something wrong along the way.

 

HMMM .. ok heard a news from yt. Hmmmm , happy.

 

THANKS YT for telling me the news. Can't stop smiling ..

 

TEEHEEE ..

let me continue ..

 

have been a NIGHTMARE.

Ups and downs. Left and right. *SIGH* It was a disaster. How come 1 happiness always comes with 10 sadness and disappointments? I have been struck so badly that i just wished it would end soon. Sometimes i really cannot take it. This time it seems like i fall from the 20th storey. Its really bad. Hmmm. Despondent. Dejected. Esp for my Math. But lucky me! I got 6 marks added. I mean, how cam the examiner didn';t count those marks?? I deserve them OK. Hmm, Humans still haven't get yet.

 

SO TIRING. Body aching. Gonna have my supper later. HAHA. and hmmm ..

 

 

 

 

starry eyed.

in love